I was just about to turn 17 and feeling completely hopeless. My home life had been tumultuous and filled with strife, and my parents had finally divorced a few years earlier. Still, the scars of my past haunted me and I struggled with depression and cutting.
I cried out to God and asked Him a poignant question: What was the reason for my life if it was only to suffer?
On my 17th birthday, I was feeling especially depressed, and my mom wanted to take me out for my birthday. My birthday was in the summer, and I felt especially lame that I didn’t have any friends to go out with. In the car on the way to the restaurant, I was considering how I was going to end my life, but I thought of my mom and how heartbroken she’d be as she’d already been through so much already.
As a little girl, I had always loved rainbows. They were my favorite thing. I remember getting a Rainbow Brite (an 80s cartoon) birthday cake for my birthday and just loved all the colors. I wasn’t expecting what happened next.
As we drove up to the restaurant, there was a big, beautiful rainbow right above the building! God spoke to my heart in that moment and said, “Charis, I love you. This is my gift to you on your birthday. I do have a purpose and a plan for your life.”
I could not believe it and I immediately burst into tears. How could a rainbow have appeared at the exact moment I needed to hear from Him, and on my birthday, no less?! My mom was wondering what was going on with me, and I tried to explain. A rush of love and hope had filled my heart and it started me on journey of seeking God for myself. Throughout my life, I have often seen rainbows at important times. They are a reminder to me that God is definitely in the miracle-working business.
The recent CDC report about Gen Z suicide is absolutely heartbreaking. Factors cited include social media and lack of real connection, which I absolutely believe is true, but I also think there are some huge pieces missing. The biggest contributors of my road to consider suicide was an unhealthy emotional upbringing and lack of real faith. Everything in the church I had experienced up until that point didn’t seem real to me. It wasn’t until I encountered the Holy Spirit that my life completely changed.
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SOURCE: Christian Post, Charis Brown