Kay Warren, wife of Saddleback Church pastor Rick Warren, wrote a heartbreaking letter to their late son Matthew in honor of his birthday, expressing hope that he’s among “the crowd of witnesses who are cheering us on” in Heaven.
On July 18 — what would have been Matthew’s 34th birthday — Warren shared a photo of a colorful rose along with the caption, “Happy birthday in heaven, my beloved son. Your rose is blooming today. With all the faith I have, I believe that the roses that surround you are brighter, smell sweeter and are tended by their Creator.”
She continued, “Maybe you are spending one of eternity‘s endless days enjoying every rose in sight… Maybe you and Jesus are just basking in uninterrupted conversation… Maybe you’re laughing with Granddaddy, Grandpa, Grandma, or Uncle Jim. Maybe you’re taking part in the crowd of witnesses who are cheering us on – millions of brothers and sisters who are reveling in the life that is truly Life.”
“Whatever you’re doing, Jesus’ words reassure me it’s good. So I will linger over your rose, absorbing the colors, textures and scent, and let it be a ‘seen’ reminder of the unseen Reality where you live. I miss you so much; just a little while longer! Love you forever, Buddy.”
On April 5, 2013, Matthew Warren, then 27, fatally shot himself after a long and private struggle with mental illness that was only made public after his death. In a video posted on LightWorkers.com, Kay Warren revealed her son was diagnosed with clinical depression at age 7, and later with ADHD and panic attacks. At age 12, he began having suicidal thoughts.
“Matthew was one of the funniest guys I know,” she said. “He just had this weird and wacky sense of humor and nobody could make me laugh like Matthew. He was both amazing and someone who was pretty tortured most of his life. He was complicated, I think, because of that.”
“So he just lived his life with serious mental illness, and his chronic suicidality began to build and build and build,” Warren said. “I never knew from day to day if he was going to be alive. I really didn’t know, ‘Is this the day he’s gonna die?'”
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SOURCE: Christian Post, Leah MarieAnn Klett