It took decades, but Janet Jackson is finally learning to love herself.
“Like millions of other women, I’ve struggled with low self-esteem my whole life. I’m doing better in that regard,” Jackson, 52, told Billboard in an interview published Thursday. “My inclination toward harsh self-criticism and even self-negation has dramatically eased up. I believe in all the different methods of help — smart psychology, vigorous exercise and sincere spirituality.”
The “Rhythm Nation” singer’s divorce from Qatari mogul Wissam al Mana may be part of the reason for this. The billionaire businessman was even more reclusive than the famously shy Jackson and was accused by her older brother, Randy, of verbally abusing her during their five-year marriage, an allegation al Mana has denied.
But that isn’t the only drama Jackson has had to deal with. She was forced to see Justin Timberlake perform at this year’s Super Bowl in February after throwing her under the bus for the infamous wardrobe malfunction in 2004. Her weight fluctuations have made headlines and shaken her confidence, while her family feuded publicly following the death of her beloved brother, Michael.
The state of the world for women also worries her but she remains confident change will come, especially in the era of the #MeToo and Time’s Up movements.
“I’m anxious. I’m angry. I’m certainly concerned, but … I’m optimistic,” she said. “We women artists — and women in general — are saying we will not be controlled, manipulated or abused. We’re determined not to fall back to those days of emotional and even physical enslavement. It’s a blessing to be alive today and join in the fight for equality among all human beings.”
“My son, even in his short 17 months on the planet, has showed me that love, no matter how deeply you believe you have experienced that emotion, can always go deeper,” Jackson gushed of her baby boy. “Love is limitless. And for someone like me, raised in show business where self-concern is always a priority, how fortunate I am now to be concerned, first and foremost, with the welfare of someone else. Day after day and night after night, holding my baby in my arms, I am at peace. … In those moments, all is right with the world.”
SOURCE: Page Six – Jessica Sager