Jay says it’s a “miracle” that he came to faith in Christ.
Having grown up in a well-to-do fundamental Muslim family in Afghanistan and at one point in his life even thinking about joining a terrorist group, he could have never imagined the way that he’d be rescued from the suicidal depression he faced after he abandoned Islam.
Jay (not his real name) told The Christian Post in a phone interview last week that there was a point in his life that he would inwardly glorify deadly terrorist attacks in the name of Islam as they happened around the world and even considered doing his own “jihad” after being indoctrinated online.
The 30-year-old who came to the U.K. in 2001 as a 15-year-old asylum-seeker fleeing the Taliban and United States retaliation to the terrorist attacks of 9/11, explained that he grew up to become the very thing that he told the U.K. government that he escaped from.
“I got indoctrinated and became very extreme,” he explained. “The religion was telling me to do jihad somewhere. The deeper I went into religion, the deeper I got extreme within me.”
But Jay never joined a terrorist group or committed an act of jihad. Today, he is among numerous Muslim apostates around the globe who have converted to Christianity and have had to pick up their lives and move because of threats over their decision.
Although Jay is now a U.K. citizen and lived in Kent for about 12 years, he now feels as though he is once again an asylum-seeker in his own country because he has been forced to relocate for his own safety.
While he once felt himself being pulled into violence by Islam, it was the violent aspect of the religion that ultimately pushed Jay away.
Jay has always been a spiritual person. He said that when he began to question Islam and distance himself from it, he started opening his mind to various other faiths and did thorough online research on them.
It was through the research that Jay felt most compelled to accept Christianity in 2013.
After a driver who Jay employed for a business he co-owned in Kent gave him a Gideons Bible in 2014, it was then that he fully grasped the stark contrast between Christianity and Islam.
“I was reading the Sermon on the Mount. There were tears coming out of my eyes while reading,” Jay said. “It felt like someone punched me in my very spirit when Christ said in the Bible, ‘love your enemy.'”
“I was like, ‘Hang on a minute. There is a person telling me to go and kill all the Jews and Christians wherever you find them and telling me to beat my wife and all these other things.’ I would have done it because I believed in it,” he continued. “Then, [here is Jesus] telling me to love your enemy. I was like, there is just something wrong with this religion.”
Although Jay wouldn’t be baptized until 2015, it wasn’t long after he distanced himself from Islam and accepted Christ that he experienced the cost of his new faith.
He had only been married to his wife — a Muslim woman from Afghanistan who was living in Pakistan with her family — for one year when he officially left Islam at heart.
After telling her that he was no longer a Muslim, Jay’s wife insisted that he participate in Islamic prayers.
Jay explained that his wife’s family won’t allow her to join him in the U.K. until they are “dead certain” that he is a practicing Muslim. Even then, it would be years before he could regain their trust.
“She went into depression. She couldn’t comprehend it. She said, ‘How can you say that?'” Jay recalled. “For three years she knew I was not a Muslim, she came to a point where she insisted more and more that I should be praying. The last time I was with her in Afghanistan was back in January 2015. One night we got into argument about it. I took 100 pills to take my life.”
Thanks to Jay’s uncle who took him to a hospital in Kabul, Jay survived.
But backlash from his wife was not all worries that led to Jay’s unsuccessful suicide attempt.
His abandonment of Islam also caused a divide between him and the Pakistani Muslims who co-owned the business they ran together for four years in Kent.
After Jay’s colleagues began sensing that he wasn’t a Muslim, things eventually reached a boiling point where he had to leave the business at a huge financial loss.
“I can’t visit my wife. I lost my business,” Jay said.
Having survived the suicide attempt in 2015, he returned to England.
“I came back to England and I again intended fully to take my life. I still couldn’t cope with it,” Jay admitted. “I knew God the Father, God the Son. I did believe in the Holy Spirit but that was something I needed to [fully] understand.”
Upon returning to the U.K., Jay’s Nigerian general practitioner introduced him to a Nigerian Pentecostal church less than an hour’s drive from where he was living in Kent.
“It was there back in June 2015 that I got baptized by the Holy Spirit that I got deeper into Christ and into the Bible. I read the whole Bible twice,” he explained. “Had it not been for that Nigerian doctor, I would have done something stupid. Thank God he saved me in such a miraculous way because I figured out that it was God trying to save me.”
Because of his conversion and embrace of the church community, Jay faced threats from his colleagues, family members and others in the Muslim community in Kent that made it dangerous for him to continue living there.
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Source: Christian Post